9th July 2009
I love my mum more and more each day. And the love each day cannot be measured. She is the best mum in the world.
I have to write this down so as to remember every single thing she has done for me. She supports me in anything and everything I wanted to do, be it studies or whatever. Because of her and dad, I have never failed in things I really wanted. Most of the time, I get what I want, however, definitely not in the spoilt way. Once in awhile, when things don’t go my way, she will not put me down. She gives me more hope and goes through adversity with me. She does a great job in bringing us up and I admire her for that. I really want to be like my mother when I am a mother myself. There is too much to say about her nobility.
Since the past few weeks, she has been quietly preparing for my studies. As I was finding for some paper, I saw a checklist of THINGS TO BUY, all written by her. Not only that, she goes out shopping with me, foot every bill, unpack them from the shopping bags, wash the new clothes, and then arrange aside nicely for me. I have days left here with her, and I don’t know how my life would be when I say goodbye to her and family.
Can someone tell me to be brave? Can someone assure me that my family will be happy and healthy? I know I made this choice, but why is this so difficult? I know I have to be firm so that everyone will not feel sad that I am leaving, but as I count down the days, I find it harder to put up a strong front. Dyan, bro, how did you guys do it?
Jaws,
BE BRAVE! You can do it…
Hmm… It’s not really that difficult… Just think that this will take only 2-3 years? And this period will pass fast… It give you a chance to learn to be independence, a chance to let you know that who you really care and who are those that care about you and a chance to treasure more what you feel like treasuring… chim hor? I also don’t know how to explain to you… Anyway Since you made a choice le, you have to face them… Give yourself a chance to prove that you can make it… 
Hmm… I guess no one can assure you that your family will be happy and healthy… But if you are happy, I guess your family will be happy too…
As for healthy, since you’re not by their side, maybe you can send your concern and care to them by calling them, email them or sms them when you miss them or when you free… 
No one will not feel sad about your leaving… As your friends, they are sad but they are happy for you too… You’re going away to do something for your future, it’s not a sad thing after all…
Time flies… trust me…
Enjoy all these moments, it’s parts and parcel of life… 
Do take good care of yourself and have a safe journey… 
Oh ya… You don’t have to hide your feelings… Just cry if you want to… Just laugh if you want to… You will feel better…
polaris only comes out at the right time… isnt it? haha
youre always here. THANK YOU.
You’re welcome…
Take good care ya… 