Actually, I…

I had that indescribable sense of delight just by looking at you from a distance. It doesn’t matter how far we’ve got. Then came you asking me if I have time to do lunch with you. Now I get that feeling when people always say, “Wish that time will stop right here”. I finally feel it.

Then I asked myself 2.5 years ago…why didn’t I treasure the moment when you touched my hands and dropped hints that we should be together? Why did I even freak out when you put your hands over my shoulders? Why did I say NO to everything you wanted for me? Why did I even ask my mum to lie to you that I am not at home when you called? Why did I not reply when you say, “I love you”. And I should not have said that you’re a boring person when you were just being serious with me. I regret. Feels like yesterday even though it has been 2.5 years ago.

You are already the last to know.

I am sorry for having this feeling only after you left. If we could turn back the time to 2.5 years ago, there won’t be any other IFs.

P.S: Please do not have too much faith in me. I am afraid I will let you down.