Home alone again

Before you go on reading, a reminder to you that oldrefrain is just a blog for myself to lay my thoughts. Sometimes entries may be cliche, emotional, boring, negative, too cheesy, and if you feel uncomfortable or unconvincing reading, this place is really not for you.

Alright, I should rejoice because I got through a hellish week. However, there is something to be proud about. I never knew that I could make it through regression, correlation, time series and forecasting..I missed a number of lessons and I always feel bad bothering samm to answer my stupid questions. I feel guilty for not having the slight interest during lessons and always want others to repeat for me what the lecturer had said. Thus, the irritating me made it a point to just practice on my own. So, TADA! Got an A for the test. Summation is, sometimes you really have to force yourself to do even things you dislike, cos’ while doing so, you may realise that you’re actually better than you think you are.

That aside, home alone again. I miss all of them. Called mum and she said that Istanbul is really beautiful. Talked to clyric and he said Germany’s fries are the best, said he visited 35 castles, said he’s gon’ visit MOZART’S house. Can someone just shoot me? Damn.

Long weekend, I tell myself I have alot of friends. However, browsing phonebook from A to Z, there’s no one I seriously feel like going out with. Mainly because, some friends are like long lost friends..some friends have new friends to concern..some friends have boyfriends, girlfriends..some friends love clubbing-which I obviously do not have a reason to love..some friends have given up on me a long time ago when I started to be busy..some friends are no longer called friends because of god-knows-why..some friends are in heaven but I couldnt bring myself to press “DELETE CONTACT”..

About me being too busy, I really hope friends can spare me their little understanding. It is not about power, wealth or fame. It is about treasuring youth, being as active as possible. It is about making up for the time I’ve lost. I believe that this is the time to build my foundation and character..I started to be alittle wiser only in recent years, and I am just doing myself a favour to forge my way and find my stand while I am still considered young, strong and healthy, while I still have time. But no matter how busy I am, I do have interests in others..No matter how busy I may get, just don’t forget me totally like Ive always said.

I have sooooo many friends, sad to say, maybe only one truly understands.

p.s: If you’re still in contact with secondary school friends, keep them as treasures. Seriously, it is not just a myth when they say that secondary school friends are friends you will want to keep in this lifetime…It is a truth.

~ by jaws on May 17, 2008.